What’s your darkness?

To sit back and wait, to let the Spirit of God stir and move and change and love us into a place where our hearts are wholly His – to this list-making girl seems like the hardest thing He could ask of me. To do more than tell my overly-chatty or angry four year old, “Be quick to listen and slow to speak,” but to actually step it out in every moment of my day – it goes against my own overly-chatty, sometimes angry nature.

[God] will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart. At that time each will receive their praise from God. 1 Corinthians 4:5

I am not comfortable in my own quiet. I feel the need to contribute, to direct, to advise, to love through my words. It’s part of my make-up – the one God gave me on purpose – BUT I see how much I have to learn, how much God wants to do in my heart, how the things that are hidden away beneath my constant noise and movement are the very things that are keeping me from living in complete intimacy with Him. It’s only in my own silence that they can be unearthed, brought to light, and release praise from the lips of my Father.

The chatter is my darkness. Have you thought about what yours might be? I warn you – to consider this is to walk right into uncomfortable. Simultaneously, I encourage you – establishing that which is making things dark and unclear makes removing it look like pizza on the weekend…exactly right.

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  1. I love/don't love how God uses our kids to point out the darkness in our lives. Anna is also chatty, and I constantly remind her to be patient. After the kids are in bed, God is so good to remind me that I am the one lacking patience! I agree the "being still and waiting " part of Gods word is so hard.

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