It’s more than fear that keeps me from dreaming. It’s just…life. It’s mornings in the library, two little girls in tow, that are so horrific you are driven to Ruffles and Ranch…and two bags of chocolate. It’s sitting at the lunch table repeating over and over to yourself, “The goal here is not to hurt
I am afraid.
I hear my alarm. I wait. I don’t want to leave the soft space of escape but hot coffee and the possibility of seeing something more than my own frustrations today grab my feet and swing them to the floor. I pad quietly past the girls’ bedrooms and absentmindedly stir in cream and sugar as
Bring It
When I have allowed sleep to take priority over my morning time with Jesus for a while, I generally choose Jesus Calling by Sarah Young to help me get back into the habit of steady and committed time with Him pre-dawn. She writes the voice of Jesus so beautifully and has adequate Scriptural documentation to back
Discontent or Restless?
My whole life I have struggled against discontentment. It’s always this season, this job, this ailment, this moment that is the problem. If only “this” would change, then I would experience a sense of fulfillment and purpose. “This” trickles down into every area of my life making me bitter, frustrated, and an overall negative person.
Survival Tactics of a Sleep-Deprived Mommy
I think that, when you are the parent of young children, and a thing is happening in your life that requires great focus, attention, and prayer [aside from said children, that is], the easiest way for Satan to attack you is to cause the littlest biggest parts of yourself to be up for all hours
God Cares about the Mama Sheep
I woke up at 5 heavy-hearted and uncomfortable in my bed. I prayed, cruised Facebook for a while, made a mental checklist for today, prayed some more and finally dozed back off at 6. We all slept until almost 8 this morning, and I felt pretty grateful for that. Marilee woke up all fluffy haired,
The Office/Guest Room Combo
Okay, so remember that one time I was redoing my office very slowly? The thing about doing things slowly is that often times the whole plan changes in the slowness. I’m alright with that, but it does take some flexibility and imagination. My tiny little office was a really great space for what I needed
How do you dream big AND embrace today?
I was up for my two hour jaunt last night. It’s a thing that, with this pregnancy, happens about once a week. I’ve come to embrace it and since, now, I’m no longer fighting nausea for those two hours, I am using it to reflect and pray. I am soaking up the quiet while simultaneously
Walk before Him
I find myself astounded – again. In some swift miracle, I am Emily again. I am eating chips and cooking dinner and dancing in the kitchen with my man. I am marveling at my girls and considering God’s Word. And a week ago I was still in the trenches of “just get through the day.”
Confessions
I thought I’d do a little bit of everything sort of post. All I can promise is that it will be truthful…and maybe a little sloppy. Read at your own risk. 1. There are so many things about motherhood I am deeply moved by – desperately in love with. Like watching Adelle’s heart unfold in